my 3 am thught go as follow:
This is real. oh god tis is real. All events up to this point was real and you lived the (i have a little OBE here where i kinda dis associatie). At the end of this real there isnt a replay button. One day you will be laid down, hands over chest forever. oh god this is real, oh god this is real and you cant wake up. You dont get to wake up to a life that doesnt end buddy, oh god this is real.
The concept of this life being REAL is too much sometimes