I want to peg N from pokemon until his lega can't move.

I doth listen

Ima start to document my experiences with what little time I have left

✋🏼

What stories do you remember?

Well my first there was my friend and a girl who tried to be friends with me but she started dating my friend and then she accused my friend of raping her and she "inappropriately touched" another one of my friends in his sleep. I left so idk what happened next but I heard it was even more bullshit than before.

My second hospital stay I fell in love with some guy from Brazil and he apparently loved me back
But he moved back to Brazil
The day he did I was bawling my eyes out and he hugged me and I layed my head on his chest and told me not to cry
I stopped crying and he left
Then I started crying again for like an hour
And then days later a bunch of girls started bullying me and my hospital friend joined in
She apologized later but it still stung

Oh and my 3rd (last) one I witnessed someone
A. Getting their head smashed into the door
B. Getting their hair ripped out of their neck and them bleeding a lot

So I had experiences with suicidal tendencies since 8th grade, and my last one so far was last October, where I nearly killed myself.

I, for one, had let my suicidal tendencies out slightly, so the school sent me home and reccomeded I went to a psychiatrist for a check up.

Well... got sent to a psychward after a few questions because I was "at risk". I was stuck for an entire week, but it felt super comforting. We weren't allowed to use pencils to write because we could hurt ourselves with it. The forks were limited, and they were always returned back so we couldn't bring it home. You get the atmosphere of the entire place.

But the place was super nice. Every single person there had their own story, and a relatable feel. It... was one of the only places where I felt like I "belonged". The other places being my room and the internet.

Eventually, I left... but I liked the place.

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