My dad attempts to hit me my mom is getting a divorce I feel like everyone hates me nobody would ever care if I stopped talking or died people constantly say I'm "too skinny" even though a ton of people say I'm fat and need to stop eating like a pig so I eat little the only reason I'm okay(not so okay rn) is because of people online who actually care about me and don't give a shit about what I'm like and actually support me for everything I do and they are the only people who know nobody asks me if I'm okay I hide my emotions because I think I should only be happy and can't cry without a reason even though I cry every day.
It's normal to cry, never think you are not allowed. It is ok to cry I promise. If u need support, feel free to reach out. I will respond as soon as possible:)
When i was younger my mom told me she would give me a read reason to cry if she saw or even f**king heard a single crying or sobbing noise from me. And she would hit me/smack me/etc and I forced myself to hold my tears back and I just thought it was normal for two years.