finna unalive because i think she knows that im gay.

Jesus Christ that is not ok

Yeah..we are trying to calm them down rn.

Man, I'm not very observant sometimes but GOD this is awful

Yes..uh.. I've been in this position before and I think I have an understanding of how they feel..uh.. yeah, they need to calm down, they don't notice how much we love them.

I have not personally, and have rarely had to calm someone down like this, I don't know what to do and I don't wanna lose Sylvia

I remember when I said "I wanna jump off of a building" and my class chanted to do it :]

Who cares what they say? You are so much stronger than them!

when i can't even lift a cat?
my mental health has been f**king deteriorating since i was in 1st!
that was my peak.
i cannot handle another f**king day of torture everywhere i f**king go.
EVEN AT CHURCH IM TOLD TO KMS!

Who in church tells you that?

everyone.

Why? Why would priests and people do that?

They'll be better off without me anyways :|

No. We value you, we care about you, and we would be devastated if we lost you

Well
If you need to leave or take a break that's fine if that's what you need
But do NOT
Do NOT end your life

Well, maybe we could help you get stable again at least.

The only reason I joined this site was to redevelop my mental health.
it's not working.

"attention hoard"
"spoiled brat"
"faker"
"embarrassment to be around"
ALL BECAUSE I WAS THE F**KING 'SPOILED' CHILD GROWING UP!

I'm sorry, I'm so very sorry, but I don't want you to die

Don’t be around the negative. Try to focus on the positive.

...i can only do so much from my phone, but I beg you. Please don't do it..

That is not true
*hugs* I'm so sorry you're going through that

I've taken a 4 month break and 3 1 month breaks. It hasn't worked.

If you have to LEAVE
that's ok
As long as you DO NOT KILL YOURSELF

It doesn't matter what they tell you to do ok? You need to calm down.

im at my calmest point?

...it's ok to have upsetting thoughts, but you don't have to do anything to make them come true..I'm here for you..mkay?...

Okay what the actual f**k
That's f**ked up

Dude those people are either sick, sadist monsters or they thought you were joking. Sadly, it was probably the former. I'm so sorry for you, but please don't do it. I beg you.

Sorry, what's going on? Can I help?

just being suicidal, nothin much :]

What's going on with your mum?

she came crawling back after 2 f**king months of deserting her own children.

Why?

her boyfriend (now ex) apparently didn't give her enough attention :/

Oh I'm sure it was her fault
Hopefully mabye your dad will not let her back?

too late for that...

Oh..

You still there?

Mhm…
Wish I wasn’t.

Please just hold on
Not only do all of us love you but we would be devastated if we lost you. You saved one of us from committing suicide. We would feel so guilty if you were gone.

They say suicide is a silent killer…

I'm so sorry about that

You'll be silent but the cries of those who loved you won't be

Don’t commit toaster bath please.

why?

Because there are so many better ways to go out.
/J
because I love you and think you are so special and shouldn’t care about what your mom thinks about your sexuality.

when my sister was lesbian and she came out to my mom, she almost got kicked out.

Ok. Your mom shouldn’t be able to come back after 2 months and be almighty ruler of the household.

thats how it goes. she makes the excuses with "i brought you into this world, (in this case household,) and i can take you out."
My dad doesn't live there, and he's been the one taking "care" of us since she left.

Well, that sounds great. But that’s not a reason to kys. Tell me what’s more important: life, or your mom’s approval?

life sucks anyways:/
and what i meant was that she could kick us out at any time if there's something she disapproves.

Yeah, I realize that. But please, for everyone here, for everyone who knows and loves you, please don’t kys.

who are those people?
every time someone says that they like me (friends and alike), it's a lie.

Me

I like you. And that’s not a lie.

There's me, I love you all.

I'm not lying either

sure :/

I like you for who you are. You deserve to live. So live.

i don't wanna live though :[

I don’t care that you don’t want to live. If I have to, I will go to your house and give you hugs until you calm down.

But our lives would be horrible without you, I look up to you and I love each and every one of you. It might be scary but you don't have to kys because of your mom. I understand the placement you are in right now but their are better ways to deal with this.

you don't know where i live.

I don’t care. I will travel the world to find you.