Got something to tell y’all that I just need to get out

I have an irrational fear of being left out
Not sure where it came from, but whenever people are like “we did some cool shit and everyone was there except you” or something like that, I suddenly get a wave of despair and depression.
It may have came from when I was younger and some asshole friends were telling me to go away when they wanted to do something with the other person but not me, but then again I have no idea
I also can never take naps because of this, as I’m scared someone will do something I was looking forward to but I’ll miss it because I was asleep.
I do realize it sounds like I’m just really selfish, but this is just something I’ve noticed happening really often and I thought I would let you all know so that you don’t get the wrong idea.
Thanks for listening I guess

I mean its really hard to invite you to the competitions I do but I'll tell you how it went and maybe try to get some pictures

No that’s ok, I’m alright with that, you can send pictures if you want to though

*hugs* it's all gonna be okay
Wanna get some ice cream later? <3

I would love that