Hey bro, I don't know if you believe in God or not, but I promise he can help you out of this mess if you pray to him. Life is bad right now and satan wants you to give up and lose the fight. Don't give him that satisfaction. You'll get better if you keep fighting and don't give up.
Don't fall into depression worse than you already are. I know life sucks, but if you didn't have a purpose God wouldn't have created you.
Anyway I hope you get better man.