My emo gay temp

Everyone calls me weird bc i sexualize everything and im sry for that im just used to everything being sexualized bc i was r@ped when i was young and it happened for years. I also cant really tell emotions bc i am not social and i forget what its called but its were i dont really have emotions and i cant really tell emotions so people say i tell them how they feel so i just dont know what to do anymore; idk; Birds