I live in hell , my head hurts my brain is mush and im a zombie from never sleeping , im always irritated and yet in pain, im also always jumped on for no reason and just want to end it all yet every attempt has been a fail ive been to multiple places that were supposed to help but only made it worse, i cant feel barely any emotions, i wear a fake smile cause i dont let people see how i truly feel, i cry myself to sleep with music and am always numb , like polo g im barley holding on, like juice wrld im in denial, like xxx i spoke to the devil, , i get the pain