reason why it's like ptsd is when I played a match of battlefield 1 at a friend's house as a 30-player mil sim style party a few days ago. I hear soldiers screaming in agony, gunshots everywhere, I see a blimp fall down, I see a player with a Flamethrower. I was out of ammo. I only could run. I was hiding. then. the song I am talking about kicks into my head. I was being hunted by the flame trooper. he was going to finish me off. my team was retreating. I was so horrified. it felt so realistic. I forgot I was playing the game. my heart was beating faster than when I'm chased by the ink demon in bendy. then the enemy team walks past me, they don't see me. I stayed inside the bunker. watching them walk by. then the flame trooper who's been hunting me sees me. I literally exited out of the bunker and begging for mercy in the voice chat. the flame trooper burned me. I was dead. I quit the match. my wife quit the match and ran over to me and saw the tears in my eyes of horror. I never thought a game with unrealistic gunplay would make me so horrified. maybe because of how gritty the game is. the song "is that the door?". now reminds me of this horrifying match I played in battlefield 1. everyone else in the party walked over and were shocked by how horrified I was. I never been so immersed in a game where I thought I was actually there, and when I died. I remembered. I died in a game. not real life.
War is hell. call of duty lies to you.. they make it look fun. well. it's not.
