I dislike people like you. "Oh i hate myself feel sorry for me" "I'm so ugly" like stfu. I understand you might have been through some stuff, but at least you have a life to live. People in poor countries are starving to death, and there are soldiers dying for your country and your freedom and you're over here thinking about throwing it all away because you can't "love yourself". So suck it up, and enjoy the rest of the years you have as a kid.