I get it. The Dsmp shutting down also affected me pretty hard. If your really hurting over it (which is totally a valid feeling I’m not demeaning it) definitely reach out to some one. Internalizing emotions, especially negative ones, is never a good idea. I know when it shut down for me, I felt like I part of my identity disappeared. So maybe consider why your hurting and address that issue (if you feel like me, like part of your identity disappeared remember you aren’t defined by your hobbies). And never forget that you do matter to people, like your family, friends, and all the rest of us Dsmp fans.