Just know that there is more to live for. Sometimes you have to sit down and think. When you die,.there is no heaven. An endless black void where you can't even think. Just an endless stretch of nothingness. Plus, even if your family lost hope, someone committing suicide is something that you remember forever. My dad lost his adoptive brother, and if anyone mentions him, he needs to be alone for an hour. My friend recently came over to my house and told me about someone who committed suicide when she was in high school, and she remembers it even though she didn't know her that well. Also, if your really thinking this way.I would suggest staying away from MSMG. I saw someone post something there about being suicidal and most people encouraged them to do it. People care, and suicide is something that you can't come back from.