someone once asked me what my safe place is. my answer? music. it's always been music. whenever i wanna ignore the world i grab my earbuds and start singing at the top of my lungs. until my family yells at me to shut up, put the phone away, and go do something. so i just sit in my room, with my earbuds in, and cry. then get yelled at for not doing anything all day. this is how i live. i try to cope, but can't. so it's just an endless cycle of numbness that i can't escape. it's the safe place i can go but never stay.
