1. Theres no hospitals near us at all and the nearest one would probably be about 20km away from my house.
2. If i were to ride the bus or train there, im not the best at german and wouldn't understand what they're saying. Id also not know what im saying myself and they could understand me wrong. Im not even good at english, the language ive known my whole life.
3. Also if i go to the airbase, where they speak english, i wouldn't be able to get in because i dont have an ID and if i somehow did, they would take me back home.
4. I read at least two books a day on wattpad and it does distract me for a while but once im done with the book i start to feel bad again
5. Again, i live in Germany and would have to call 114. I’d fvck up the words and they'd probably understand “my duck fell in the toilet” or something.
And on top of all that, i have a condition with my face where my muscles tense up and i just smile whenever i feel awkward (kinda like that guy on fire force). If i ask for help from anyone, they wouldn't believe me. Would you believe a kid walking into a room like “😃hi! I just wanted to ask if i could have some help! 😁😁😁😁”