I'm not even Christian but I feel for ya'll because your god went through some BRUTAL stuff. I heard about people crying and covering their eyes in the theatres during The Passion of the Christ. Nobody deserves to die like that.
If you ever think that the things you experienced were pain; Just remember about jesus, he was crucified, his hands and feet were nailed to a cross, and yet to this day he is still forgiving, and he handled it for us