I tried to explain to them that this is unfair just 2 hours ago and holy s*it I almost jumped off of the windown. I love my mom and I send her an email abt all the lies that I made and why I did them and she answered (irl, not by email) "You speak like an adult. But aren't one ! Watch your words before saying this my fault !!!" I said in the email that bc I was scared to ask her to let me play video games, I lied and played without her permission. That was half my fault and half her. I wanted peace. She made things even worse between us. I just wanna find Mom who once loved me as herself. Now its gone, reduced in atoms. I dont wanted to move out asap before but now......I almost wanted to do it rn.....but I cant...........