Oh dang... Crazy to think that anybody could be thinking about that. That's once reason I try so hard to be nice to everyone.
Being serious here I don't really care who you are, as long as your a person and act like one, nothing is worth your life.
I hate to see someone at a point where they think about that and having the knowledge that they would actually do it.
You really have dealt with a lot of losses huh? Well at least we could imagine, that things might be better in their next life, but it's terrible for that to happen.