i'll tell you the story in the comments (!VENT WARNING!)

Can I give you some advice? If you don't want that right now or you feel that I'm being judgemental you don't have to keep reading. But I have a couple things I think I should say.
1.Im not sure if you meant suffocating metaphorically but if not when using non-traditional binding methods make sure you do it safely and take it off if it starts to hurt. I know there is dysphoria that can occur if you don't mind but it's not worth hurting yourself (also improper binding can negatively affect the chances of being able to do top surgery in the future)
2. As for the noise triggering, earbuds and listening to music in class are great for that. Or in extreme cases you can ask to get out of the classroom. Doing something with your hands(like using a fidget or in my case snapping them when I get nervous)are a great way to distract yourself
3.its hard to open up to a counselor, I have been trying to open up to trusted friends first and work up to counseling. You can try that if you want
4.if you are dealing with homo/transphobia finding someone you can trust is important, a friend a teacher, whatever as long as you feel safe
5. Us and other LGBTQ communities are always willing to talk and give advice, we are here for you
6. https://www.thetrevorproject.org/ this is a link to the Trevor Project. A group dedicated to helping LGBTQ youth
7.we love you and support you. I hope you know that 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️

it feels like I'm suffocating. everyday.
I don't have a binder.
I have sports bras.
classrooms with loud kids.
my heart's sensitive as all hell
I keep spacing out in class
too many people in one area

it feels like I'm dying.
like there's a part of my body that doesn't function inside.
I can barely stay in anything
can I stay in a club?
no.
will I ever tell someone that can help me?
no.
then why am I still here?

it feels like I could cough up blood.
if every time I lied to a counselor I gain a cut,
my arms would be bleeding
my mind gains that same static when there's music and when I stop paying attention.
a way to drown out the noise.
something to help me
somewhere to go
maybe a loud song?
or
the void where I belong.

old friends around me, judging my every move
and no way out of the hellscape i call a school

no need to send help

"I'm fine."

If you ever need someone to talk to, i'm here for u :) ik just how u feel with school and stuff like that. My grades are slipping bc of my learning disabilties and adhd, its VERY hard 4 me to focus, i get lazy and dont want to do the work (im virtual this year i was in person school last year, i turned to virtual bc of bullying) the work keeps piling up and my parents always yell at me 4 it.. they dont understand (TW SH)- I just started cutting again today after being 1 year and 3 months clean... bc my parents yelling at me over it.. i love them still and know that they are doing it to push me to do better and i am cable of doing it and i can succed but i have anxiety (all types), adhd, autisim, bipolar, epilipsy, and depression. School is physically and mentally draining 4 me, and REALLY destroys my mental health. I rlly have no one to talk to abt any of this, im scared to go to my parents abt it bc they wont understand and will think its stupid. My mom almost sent me to a mental hospital bc of SH. I feel exactly how u feel w the "judging my every move" same :( If u want to talk im here, and maybe we can become friends ?? :) <3 sorry for typing so much.. lol (also sorry for spelling mistakes, too lazy to fix it)

every day feels like a loop

"sorry... I'm just wasting your time."
and then I feel my chest hurt
a knife to the back
a broken spine
a way to escape
I'll do anything
just to escape
anything.

I'm sorry you feel that way
I know you have heard this a million times already likely
But I understand
I really do
I know everything sucks
Honestly,i think everything sucks too
But, do you have anyone who would listen?
It hurt a lot to say, but trust me, it helps to tell someone you really trust
And I'm always here to talk