So fucking tired of this. It’s just an endless loop of pain. I can’t end it. I can’t end it. I can’t end it. I can’t end it.

I’M SO F**KING TIRED OF LIFE. I MEAN- WHAT’S THE POINT?? I WAS BORN. YEAH WHAT A MIRACLE YAY. BUT WHY THE F**K WAS I BORN JUST TO BEN A MAJOR DISAPPOINTMENT TO MY PARENTS? ALL I DO IS SIT IN MY ROOM ON MY TABLET AND WHEN I’M NOT DOING THAT, THEN I’M STEALING’S SOMETHING. IF I WASN’T EVEN BORN THEN THEY WOULDN’T HAVE TO SPEND EXTRA MONEY ON ME ANYWAY SO AND WOULDN’T BE STOLEN FROM ALL THE GO***MN TIME. MY ATTEMPT TO DIE HAS FAILED TWICE BEFORE BUT WHY!?!?! I WISHED AND PRAYED EVEN THOUGH I DON’T BELIEVE IN ANY GODS, JUST SO THAT I COULD DIE. I TRIED TO OVERDOSE TWICE, JUST SO THAT I COULD DIE. AND THAT DIDNT WORK SO I GET WASHED OVER WITH PAIN JUST BECAUSE MY DUMBASS IS F**KING FILLED WITH ANXIETY AND INSECURITIES THAT I CAN’T EVEN GO TO THE BATHROOM WITHOUT FEELING WATCHED. WHEN I SLEEP I OVERHEAT MYSELF WITH BLANKET SO JUST SO THAT I DON’T FEEL LIKE THE PERSON, WHO ISNT EVEN THERE AND DOESNT EXIST, WON’T LOOK AT MY F**KING BODY. I GO THROUGH SO MANY ANXIETY ATTACKS, JUST BECAUSE MY STUPID F**KING BRAIN CREATES STUPID F**KING IMAGINARY PEOPLE STARING AT ME ALL THE TIME. MY LIFE IS NOTHING BUT PAIN AND SUFFERING BUT I CAN’T END IT. IT’S AN ENDLESS LOOP OF SUFFERING. SUFFERING. SUFFERING. IT NEVER ENDS.