Nah I think I will

I also do this, sometimes it just doesn't feel safe to show any sort of emotion

Yeah, and if I show any emotion even happiness (very rare) I will get yelled at.

Yeah, it's like if they see the slightest bit of happiness they crush it

Everytime

Yeah

I do that everyday.

Me: I have been bottling up my feelings since I was 8 (now I am 13 1/2)
People: That isn't healthy blah blah blah
Me: I forgot the part where I asked for your opinion

why isn't it good? if i bottle up emotions, i don't have to worry about people trying to help me and make things worse

It will end up bad anyway so, why not express it

because people suck at helping usually because they usually don't actually know what's happening with you

Yea