My mom has been in the hospital all day with my dad and I was left to babysit my siblings and when my dad got home he was saying how bad I was, that the house wasn't spotless, the dogs haven't been put in the kennels, and that my cat made a mess. Yet he never knew I was sick to the point I almost f**king died this morning, he never knew how much mental help I really needed, he never knew my meds weren't strong enough, he never knew shit! And he expects perfection from someone who can't even get out of bed! Depression take a lot! I haven't had any motivation to do horseshit! I have to try and get up for hours every f**king morning and he acts like I'm fine! I have a concussion that can't heal, because I'm too sick right now, nobody will even look at me, all people care about is themselves, I have been going out of my way, putting my mental and physical health aside to help people and take care of kids! YOU KNOW WHAT SUICIDE MAY BE A COWARDS WAY OUT! IF SO THEN IM SENDING MYSELF AWAY! I WILL GO TO A JUVENILE MENTAL HOSPITAL FOR F**KS SAKE! SINCE IM SO F**KED UP THEN F**KING FIX ME ASSHOLE! DAD I KNOW YOUR PROBABLY READING THIS, I GET NO F**KING PRIVACY, SO HELP ME PULL THAT SHIT AGAIN AND YOU WILL ONLY HAVE 4 KIDS AGAIN, BUT NO TEEN INSTEAD A BABY WHO WILL NEVER F**K UP LIKE I DID! GO F**K YOURSELF YOU BASTARD! IM DONE WITH MY LIFE, WONDER WHY? OH YOU PUT MY NEEDS ASIDE AND PUT ME BEHIND EVERYTHING! EVEN YOUR DAMN SOCKS ARE IN FRONT OF MY NEEDS! Now where are the drugs and alcohol? I need a break from life. Can't take mental instability? PUT ME BACK UP FOR ADOPTION ASSHOLE
