You said you are 17. Now, presuming you are in the US, and not in any of the 6 insane countries that have a drinking age lower than 18, that's illegal. No matter how close you are to 18. And if you are in the US, you still got plenty of years to go. Even at 18, your brain is still developing, making it dangerous to consume alcohol. Instead of dealing with depression with alcohol, try using therapy. Or do what you love. What are your hobbies? If you just want a simple distraction from life (and if you have the time), get a job. That helps a lot :)