my life is falling apart

My life is falling apart bingo; sensory overload meltdowns; listens to music to drown out chaos; breathing exercises; weighted blanket; neurologically disabled; existential crisis often; mentally disabled; constantly in bedroom or safe space; 'i wanna go home'; 'i took my meds today, right?'; must fidget now; anxiety; 'oh no- people'; emotional stress plush; immediately regrets impulsive actions that can't be undone; random weird idea; 'leave me alone'; needs companionship; disturbing thoughts; 'i'll do it later'; 'i'm doing fine- i think'; wears oversized jackets; no sense of time whatsoever; must make random noises now