i mean
i cant say i d o n t want to
but since i live across the world from my family there (the only first cousins i have are on my mom's side yet i am closer to my second cousins because of this) we are very distant and it's really complicated
the problem about being biracial is that you're always seen as the other race when you're with one. here, even my white family members refer to my sisters and I as the "three chinese girls" and in hong kong, we are the "girls from the us" or "the americans"
so its a really complicated question to answer because like what would i do there i'll just feel out of place