go***mnit i was having an okayish day so ofc mom had to ruin it by screaming at me and being selfish and immature all night. i'm not allowed to not be suffering apperently. and i'm no longer allowed to eat unless she gets the food for me because even she knows she's too lazy to even get off her ass and plug in her computer charger 2 feet away from her bed; i feel like i'm not allowed to be in a good mood anymore because every time i interact with my mom it ends in suicidal thoughts and tears