i have bad grades and no matter what i try to change that it always has the same outcome, no matter what i do or try my brother is always a massive step ahead of me, i have been so behind that i now see my brother as a living reminder of my failures when i can't do something my brother does it like it's nothing from lifting something heavy, doing work, to doing sports i feel like no matter what i do and try i'm always nothing comared to my brother, and i feel like a absalute failure and that i'm always in the background.