JustGiveMeTheChild Announcement Temp

So i just started taking latin and i have to take it for 3 more years. I currently have a D- and the second worst grade out of everyone in the class is a B+. I’m doing ok in my other classes, Cs and Bs, and one A. The person im dating hasn’t talked to me for 2 weeks and im getting scared and dont know what to do. I feel like a suck at the clarinet and all the other clarinets think im bad. I dont have any friends at school. Someone has been leaving threats in my locker to hurt me and tell my (very homophobic) parents that im genderfluid and pan. I had this really good friend who deleted their account. Everyone at my school hates me. I haven’t been eating a lot and idk why. My anxiety about everything has been getting out of control and i cant stop it. I feel rlly stupid and dumb and ugly all the time. Ive been starting to cut myself and i dont see the point in living. And lastly I’ve started to develop crushes on other people and i feel terrible about it cuz im dating someone. This was more of a vent then needing help but if anyone has advice for any of the things i talked about it might help.

Hmmmm
Ok so
What you should do is probably go to the school counselors, because if you’re in America, they’re basically obliged to remain silent and help you, even if they’re homophobic little m*********ers. The best thing to do in the situation is just remain calm. Don’t try and pick a fight with anyone. Just try your best to not agitate anyone. Seek help if you’re being threatened.

There are really only two things I think I can help with
Since you think you're bad at clarinet, would it be possible to switch do another instrument? Back in fifth grade, I played clarinet, and realized I really sucked when I got to middle school. What I did then was switch to what was quite possibly the HARDEST instrument to switch to, bassoon. I don't know if switching instruments could help, but if you don't think you could do another wind instrument, maybe try percussion, I'm also a percussionist and can tell you that's it's rather similar.
And the thing with having crushes on other people could be one of a few things. 1, you could be polyamorous, which means that you can be attracted to multiple people at the same time and be in a relationship with multiple people. 2, your current partner might not be right for you. I'm not super great at relationship advice, but my suggestion would be to try and find yourself, because once you do that, then you can figure out your problems in relationships.
And do you need a hug?

Oh...
Wow