So... yeah this is what has been going on lately. My parents arguing over the dumbest things known to mankind. This has been going on for a while. And if I have to estimate how long it has been going on, I would say at least 3 months.
Every day, or if not every day, every week, whenever the house needs fixing, my parents would always argue about what to do this and how to do that. And no its not just a civil argument. Oh no no. The argument involves a lot of yelling. And honestly that makes me emotionally drained.
I hate seeing my parents fight, but they always do. They say its not a big deal if they scream at each other. They say they just want to "get to level with the other", but I see it as a totally different way, but they don't understand.
But this gets worse. Just now, today, that while they were arguing about the tiniest thing possible, my mom says to my dad that if the continue fighting, then they shouldn't be together. Now one can say that they didn't mean it, and a tiny part of me says that she didn't mean it, but that made me emotionally depressed. And as I'm making this comment right now, I'm still am.
My parents have been together for a long time. And they are the best parents that I could ever have. I'm grateful for them being in my life. But saying that over the dumbest things really makes me pissed, it makes me sad, it makes my anxiety go through the roof, if they can't even keep their chill intact. Instead they argue like premature children.
My parents have the worst communication I have ever seen, and I have to live with it. They had been doing this since I've been small, and almost nothing has changed. My parents say that they are trying their best to be better, but I'm tired of hearing that bullshit excuse. They don't get better. They don't even try to get better. When one starts, its the same record over and over again. And I'm just getting so f**king sick of it. Its as if they don't care about me. If they were really doing it for me, they would've not done this a long time ago.
I wish they took therapy classes, or at least go to counseling so the arguments can be a rarity. But my parents are stubborn as f**k saying that "they're fine", but they don't sound fine when they argue. They never do.
I feel useless. I feel depressed, and I feel unmotivated for anything. All I feel like right now is just lay on my bed while listening to depressing music while I cry myself to sleep. I need help and encouragement rn.