Me and my mom are back in the fuckin car again I can never sleep in here last night I stayed at a friend’s house and omfg I feel

I’m sorry if this sound offensive but how do you have internet in the car? Like are you on a hot spot or something

Oh you’re fine it’s not offensive!!
I either use the wifi at stores or the library
Or
Use cellular data
:)

Oh ok

Continuing with the title:
I feel so safe and comfy there but now I’m back in the cramped ass car and I can’t sleep but the only reason why I didn’t just sleep through the whole morning today was because my friend had to go to his dad’s house :/

And even if her mom is- slightly insane and their sibling is bossy they care about me and have said they cared and if I needed anything I ask them and they will help and I never get that told to me people just say “oh that sucks but I’m not going to help you with shit lmao suffer dumbass f**k u”

I wish I could just live with her- I just want to live with that friend forever- be their brother and just be happy for once- I would do literally all the f**king chores if it meant I could be happy for at least a week- not even exaggerating

Recently my mom got a hotel room and she told me before leaving to hang out with her stupid f**king boyfriend that I could get “anything I wanted for dinner off doordash” so I got sonic- it said it was 20 something dollars so I was like “ok that’s a reasonable price” so I ordered it and everything was good the food was great 10/10

Then she came back and we were laying down in the bed (we could barely afford the one bed room let alone a two bed room so we just shared the tiny bed-) and she was looking at texts and stuff from people (mostly spam) then a doordash text showed up from earlier as she was looking through them and it said the food was 40 dollars?????

Do she was super f**king angry and thought I did something so I said no here’s what I ordered and told her my order (blue raspberry slushee w nerds, double cheeseburger, fries and tater tots- don’t call me a f**king fatass I already know I am I didn’t eat anything that day so that was the only food I had so shut the f**k up) and she just kept yelling and yelling at me for “wasting money”

When I did nothing wrong and got 20$ worth of food and I tried telling her that it was probably a glitch or a mistake and she just kept f**king yelling like she always does

Then we were talking about (after she FINALLY calmed down a bit) the time she worked the next day, where I would go while she worked, etc. and she was like “oh u have dnd zoom meeting thing tomorrow so I’ll just extend our stay” which we didn’t f**king have money for but ok so in the morning I wake up and get ready my mom already left for work and when it’s time for dnd I join the zoom, forgetting that this hotel has shitty as hell wifi and everyone else wasn’t joining so me, my friend, and the dm just say k lets just not do dnd today so my mom wasted 70-75 or something dollars on that- oh also the hotel room was infested with f**king ants :)

Anyways after that mom goes with her bf again and brings me back a happy meal and the next day rolls around and we have to pack up and get ready to go so that my mom isn’t late to work so I offer to put everything into our car while my mom goes to double check the room for anything we may have forgotten. I am struggling to stuff a bag into the trunk and I’m slamming my hands and arms into said bag trying to make it fit

And suddenly I feel a pain in my left ring finger

I don’t realize how bad it is at fist and just say ow, lick off the small amount of blood and go back to struggling when I see my finger DRENCHED in blood, and look closer realizing something cut my skin AND sliced my nail down the middle. Pain sinks in and I feel sick, more sick than I already did because it was hot as f**k outside + not having eaten anything since last night’s tiny ass happy meal-

We go and wait till a spot in the parking lot we sleep in is open to park our car and we wait at price chopper because they have a seating area

This f**king gross ass creepy ass bitch old guy that is ALWAYS THERE WHEN WE ARE- is there, actually shows up a few seconds after we sit down- then, sits RIGHT F**KING BEHIND US- “watching the tv” once he randomly gave me a mocha KitKat- I thought it was drugged or something because a random old guy gave it to me, but he tried talking to my mom a lot so I was like “creepy as f**k old guy candy yum” and ate it anyways, nothing happened but still- he also- again- TALKS TO MY MOM WHENEVER HE SEES HER- FOR NO REASON- LIKE THIS BITCH IS 20-30 YEARS OLDER THAN MY MOM AND IS F**KING MARRIED- I KNOW THAT BECAUSE HIS WIFE SOMEHOW NEEDS MORE GROCERIES EVERY DAY AND IVE SEEN AND HEARD THEM SAY AND SHOW THEY ARE F**KING MARRIED- ALSO BACK TO THE CANDY THING- HOW TF DID HE OUT OF ALL THE CANDY OPTIONS THERE, KNOW THAT ONE WAS ONE I LIKED??? I NEVER SAID IT EVER AROUND HIM OR HINTED AT IT OR ANYTHING AND YOU MAY SAY “he didn’t know it was a random pick” OUT OF ALL THE HUNDERES OF CANDY BAR STYLE CANDIES PLUS THE JUST GENERAL CANDY HE SOMEHOW CHOOSE AND USED HIS OWN MONEY TO BUY IT????

AND MY PHONE JUST SHUT ME OUT OF TICTOK- THE ONE THING BASICALLY THAT I CAN CONTACT IRL AND ONLINE FRIENDS ON- F**K THIS-

MY OLD FRIEND HELPED ME SET UP APPLE ID AND ALL THAT SHIT RIGHT? AND HE PUT THE SECURITY QUESTIONS AS WHAT H E WOULD ANSWER, NOT ME- AND MY PHONE NEEDS ME TO RE SIGN INTO IT TO UPDATE STUFF AND ALL THAT BUT I CANT BECAUSE HE ALSO TYPED IN AND REMEMBERED THE DUMBASS PASSWORD I MADE AND AFTER WHAT HE F**KING DID TO ME IM NOT GOING TO CONTACT HIM AGAIN I DONT EVEN HAVE HIS NUMBER OR DISCORD ANYMORE AND IM NOT READY TO LOOSE LITERALLY EVERYTHING I (digitally) OWN BY MAKING A NEW ID-

So I panic and go to painfully open my side’s car seat door and sit down. My bison going blurry feeling light headed finger bleeding everywhere except my clothes somehow hearing going away, trying to “man up” and not cry and just get the bleeding to stop and be strong and not start crying.

I grab a paper towel mom got from some random quick trip or something and try to stop the bleeding, wipe any splattered blood off the car and the rest of my hand

My mom comes outside with the last things from our room and I try to yell to her but my voice cracks a shit ton and I just start crying-

My mom rushed over and was like what tf happened and as I told her she was putting all the stuff away, CLEARLY more worried about being late to work and how lazy I was stopping from a small injury like that and in the panic she starts to drive away and doesn’t realize she forgot her work badge on the roof of the car. It falls off on the highway and she sees it fly off her car, has to u-turn about 5 times to get to it, quickly gets me to the library and since there were people there she had to act like she cared and when dropping me off said “use these 2 dollars to get some cold water and put the bottle on ur finger it will help” like I know u don’t give a f**k about me mom stop acting

Then when the library closed and my mom still was not there I got sick and tired of waiting in the hot as f**k sun I started walking down the street. Blah blah blah my friend asks me if I can come swim at their neighborhood pool and I say sure my mom finally gets there after an hour and I get dropped off at the friend’s house

Pool isn’t f**king open

We are drenched in sweat, tired, dehydrated and all that- I can’t stay at their house past 7 and instead of just staying home we decided to go get food and I wasted my money that COULD HAVE BEEN F**KING HELPFUL RIGHT ABOUT NOW- anyways I go back to the car and sleep there for the night

Stuff happens I stay the night at their house the next day
Or-
Wait- when tf did that happen—
I-
Can’t remember-
Well f**k I am finally going insane and loosing my memory-

Ok skip to today??

I wake up, not remembering that I didn’t charge my phone the night before and need to do that now or never- have breakfast, chill and wait till my mom responds to me saying inner to be picked up at 11:30 (I was staying the night at the friend’s house that’s why I had breakfast and all that stuff-) mom picks me up and says “guess what??? We are out of f**king money!!!!!!!!!! I used the last of it to fill up the fast tank!!!!!!!!!! So we are going to be f**king screwed!!!!!!” We end up wasting a shit ton of gas trying to get to Red Robin (a place where we had gift cards from my school to) we eat and the food was good

hey if you want to memechat me about the situation you can