That's kind of the point, other than a few people here, I have no one. I tried to make friends, be a normal person, but all it did was backfire and hurt me. I cage myself up, cut off my connection. I do it not because I want to, but because I'm scared of losing them. And I'll be the only person I can blame when they disappear. I am emotionally scared, fearful of solitary confinement, locked away, alone, forever.