Black

Yes

I call it antiagreementism

Indeed

💚 I'm this one because I've been called freak so many times

Damn

Yeah

aww are you okay?

Depends on your definition of "okay"

your definition of okay, are you

Not really

do you need anything?

Other than perhaps memory removal, nope

is there a way i can give that to you besides for khat

Uuhhh.... nothing I can think of right off the top of my head, unless you can prove to other people that I'm not insane

no

I'm pretty sure that the professionals are right

if they said youre f**ked and they cant help you no way they actually took any training

Some of the few most famous and successful psychologists in my area of the USA. I think they know what they're talking about

if theyre saying that then no

I really think they are right. I'm a hopeless case. There is no happily ever after for me.

i didnt say there was a happily ever after but its not a he spent the rest of his life in traumatic torture on the brink of insanity

No, I'm pretty sure I will

nope

Well, everyone else that I know believes them, I'm mental

well then they're all stupid

Well, maybe you're right, and maybe you're not.

You still have hope, trust me

I dont think so

well i do

I guess I can't change your mind

true ig

You say I'm ok, going to live, going to one day be normal. But I still doubt it. I am scarred by things no other human could imagine, I'm very close to insanity, I get at least one near death experience every week

I cant possibly imagine what youre going through. But if you actually want to get better instead of giving up then you might actually find a way

Don't you get it? There is no way! Not unless you find a way to kill unkillable things. I am trapped, I cant escape this mess

maybe youd find there is a way if you didnt give up so easily

Everyone I've ever known that knew the thing I knew were murdered. Slain in the most inhumane ways possible

do you have like a hitman on them or smth

They can't be killed, and I can't afford a hitman

but you said they were killed

One, one able to be wounded. The others not so much. And there are many

im very confused ngl

One can be killed, but there is more than one

how is everyone else immortal

Some might not be, just to quick and cunning to be hurt

oh okay

Never managed to actually hurt any of them except for that one

wait youre the one hurting them?

Only in self defense. They all tried to kill me. Two got pretty close. One tried to strangle me, and the other stabbed me with a deer antler

holy f**k

I still got the scar on my shoulder from the antler. UT I don't like to talk about it

But*

damn. has it healed at all?

A bit. It's just a white circle now. But people still like to ask about it. And I hate that

oof

Yeah

O-O then get an exterminator (a humane one if possible) or move out or if its a person call the police or smth

It is all figurative, I mean, no matter how hard I try to forget, or shut down to erase the scars, they come back, they haunt me. They stay with me forever

probably aint good tho

I kind of don't blame them. If you knew what I knew, you'd think I'm mental too

you... gave me an example... and you might have ptsd but that doenst mean youre insane

I killed something that wasn't meant to be seen by human, I escaped an attack by a thing that has driven even the most fortified men to the breaking point

is there a way i can contect them to tell them

Maybe, but to be honest, they have reasons why they think I'm unstable

you have a really scarred life but thats still ptsd and not insanity - also maybe take therapy for it

I've tried therapy, that does nothing. I've tried so much to try and be normal. It doesn't work

who tf thinks that

I can name several people, but you probably don't know any of them

well then those are the worst therapists on the go***mn planet

Either that, or they know I'm screwed

i bet you can find help there are nice people who will try their harest to help

You say I've got ptsd. But I am far beyond traumatic stress. I'm at the edge of the pit of hell. I have knowledge that man wasn't meant to have. You can't unsee something. You can't give back memories, I am trapped in my cage of eternal torment. My safe room I built up isn't as safe at I thought. I'm not the only thing living in there

Is there any way i can help

I tried opening up to people before, it didn't end well. So I'm sorry if I'm insulting you by not letting you help, but it's how I am.

not exactly what i meant but absolutely none takn you dont have to share anything you dont want to

I don't want to talk about this. It's bringing back memories I don't want to remember

so ill stop bringing it up and again you dnt have to talk about anything you dont want to but talking to a trained therapist can help. you dot have to, its just a suggestion

I've tried talking, all I got was being told I'm a hopeless case.