Because I couldn’t be better I drink alcohol, i smoke, im violent, not to mention all the mental disorders and all the times I’ve been in trouble with cops and me and my stepdad never really got along
Listen I know that I can’t do things right and I’m probably gonna end up being a f**k up when I’m older and I might leave this world alone but I can say I did the hardest thing a human could do and that is to accept the truth
With that I also gained weird habits I started to scratch myself till I bleed I also found an interest In gore one time my social studies teacher said how even kids were killed in the anarchy she lived in and I couldn’t help but smile at the thought of a seven year old losing their leg to a bomb it got to the point where I started to kill small mammals
But than someone came into my life and stopped it but than just like the last one they left without a word since than instead of dislocating my emotions my brain did something else it changed I could still feel emotions but I lost the ability to care for life’s and friends and I have gotten to a point were I have completely cut ties with people solely because they annoy me