"Come back, I still need you" hits me hard, everytime. Suicide love songs be like:

3 reasons i havent done it already. Just three.

Bro this was me a few weeks ago. Then it was Prom Queen by Beach Bunny and Youth by Daughter

Yeah with me its this or Notepad by NF. Idk why but i can honestly say that music has kept me alive

Yeah

Do you listen to NF? I dont do Chord Overstreet much, but i like CCM. (Christian music). So like, NF, for KING and COUNTRY, The Afters, and Skillet. I like them. CCM is good if ur Christian or Catholic and it has good beats. A really good one is "Eyes of a Believer" by The Afters, but i like "Survivors" by The Afters.

I listen to a lot of pop and country.

Yeah, I like indie rock, alt rock, pop, and rap

cool

yep. sometimes i make my own but i SUCK at the instrumentals, so im more of a lyricist honestly.

I suck at both

well, you just need three things:
1. Anger or another reason
2. inspiration
3. Rhythm
So pretty much, you dont NEED to rhyme, you just need rhythm. Though rhyming is a good way to keep rhythm. So like, here:

You can try to choke me out, can’t smoke me now
Don’t care what you think, I’m breaking this link
Cutting all ties, yeah, I’m doing all right
I’m tired of trying to be you, not anymore
Because it’s about time
That you realized I’m not fine
Maybe you should've seen the signs
‘Cause now I’m writing lines, making rhymes
Tryna show you that its my time, ay, this aint a crime
Stop acting like it is, what, I cant hurt you like you hurt me?
Wish you could see, guess I'm too stuck up in my defeat

Thats a verse from my song: "Letdown".
With the anger part, it doesnt have to be anger, thats just how it is with me. Ya know, family issues, trust issues, fears, abandonment, etc. Or just flat out backstabbing friends, that works too, especially with me. That entire VERSE was based of the following emotions. Most rappers, like me (im not published but i do write) had a bad childhood or mental stuff, but you dont NEED to have that, however it is good fuel.
Then for the rhymes, its like "Maybe you shouldve seen the SIGNS 'cause now im writing LINES, making RHYMES, ay, this aint a CRIME".
Most of the time with me, it kinda flows out with what ive wanted to say, so this is kinda calming for me, in a way you could say (bam one right there). Its not a born talent. I got inspired by NF, because its not about finishing every line with a swear, its about being honest. Hope this helps btw, enjoy :)

oof. i legit have THREE reasons not to, and about 429472002 to do it. hard choices, am i right?

once you commit to life for any reason there's no point in entertaining other thoughts

i know, but its like i cant get it out of my head. mainly at school. but still, if the main reason (my cousin and a few others, aka the ONLY people i trust now) fades out like everything else...then so will i. he just got a FREAKING SURGERY, and my parents didnt bother to tell me until now. We're best friends, and i guess none of my best friends ever turn out good...one moved, one stabbed me in the back then act like she's the one bleeding (ay quote from my song lol), and now my last best friend might die, which i get CONSTANT nightmares about. So really, whats the use?

What helped for me was just to get through it, life is an adventure. Some say life is a gift, that's why they call it the present, ha ha. Latch on to what you enjoy doing, or just do something to focus on and it will take your mind off things. Even just taking a deep breath slowly in a quiet place to feel where you are. Its kind of like meditation, being mindful in the present. It can be scary but that is normal because when you're young everything is a new experience and too many at the same time to really understand what is going on. If you can slow down, maybe read or go outside... dunno kiddo to me learning new things is fun and knowing I'm not alone. It may comfort some to know they are not the only one suffering. Most people are good and want friends. Life is for helping other people or try to make the world a better place.

Well, i trusted ONE person that they wouldnt leave me alone. They moved to Idaho, two STATES away. I trusted another. They backstabbed me and make death threats to me almost every day. I trusted one more. They're almost just as bad now. I'm done. The only people keeping me from it, is two 2nd graders, and one kid who's somewhat nice to me. THREE people. Xander, Alexis, and Lilliana. Xander just got a FRICKING surgery, and i couldnt do ANYTHING! I can never get my mind of it, i get NIGHTMARES that the innocent little kid DIES, and I cant do ANYTHING! I dont KNOW what im supposed to do!

Rough, that sounds. Be good to yourself when no one else will. Try to see the situation from another perspective if yours seems hopeless because there are many ways to consider the situation. At the end of the day you are only responsible for yourself, try to let the weight off your shoulders from other people's problems. The best way is to take care of yourself, even in little ways.

I dunno, i just find it hard to be proud of myself when my best friend hates me and i cant tell why. And when my little cousin is hurt. Thanks for trying though...

Well its what worked for me. When in doubt, reach out, let them know how you feel. Just remember you can't control what others feel, only they can. Once you realize that, you can focus on yourself. Time heals all wounds - a cliche like all the others.... thanks for your honesty and just being you because there is only one of you!

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