IT’S ASPIC! Hey! Do you believe you have vast expanses of resources available to combat anything? Not only for your own self but anyone, everyone…to own their body and mind so nothing no matter how horrific can shape them without an inviting smile. I believe this in its entirety for others but have trouble with believing it for myself. There’s something familiar everyday like a waking dream. I want to choose for my own self, yet given to waves of submission to something I don’t understand which completely violates my intolerance for dependency on something so intangible. How do I reconcile my need to own and give everything at once. It’s like a thousand times a day a a life left over…; TWO MILK NO SUGAR?