I'm not the best at advice but, I know how that feels, I've been I'm many similar scenarios like that. And sometimes, it is normal to feel bad about yourself because the world is tough, and you are not alone in all of this. If you ever need someone to talk to, I will try my best because I know, it feels trash. You just gotta try and see in the future how things will be awesome, and everyone goes through this every once in a while, no matter there age. So if you ever need advice, hell whatever, I'm here to help.