yea and i used to have this other friend and she was the only real friend i had
and it’s funny because we were extremely close and we both had a crush on each other, i just never had the time to ask her out
but at the time, i was suicidal and when she found out, she left me
bcuz she has had lots of people in her life kill themselves
and she moved out of the city while my other “friend” stayed friends with me
but after a couple months, she just left and wanted me to hate her
i didn’t want to at first but she started triggering my trauma and that really hurt my feelings
and she said to me, “[insert my old crush’s name] was smarter than me. she left you when i stayed with you. i hope your happy bcuz you ruined my life” and she just left
then after that i’ve been under a lot of stress
i barely get to do my own school work and i get a panic attack whenever i see or hear about her
bcuz she said everything was my fault