my philosophical belief is just nihilism and pessimism

I WAS LOOKING AT THE BASE OF HUMAN NATURE AND IM AFRAID FROM MY OWN OPINIONS AND THE WORKS OF OTHER PHILOSOPHERS THE WAY WE RUN OUR MORAL COMPASS ARE FAR FROM SAVING AND CHANGING WE HUMANS ARE THE DESTROYERS THE PARASITES AND THE CREATERS OF PAIN AND SINCE WE INFECTED EVERYTHING WE ARE THE ONLY ONES LEFT AND BECAUSE OF THAT WE SUFFER AT OUR OWN CREATION OF PAIN WE CREATED THE CYCLE AND WE ARE STUCK HUMANITY WILL SUFFER AND CRUMBLE BC OF THIS LIFE AS WE KNOW IS FAR FROM GOOD AND WILL NEVER BE WE ARE DAMNED AND WE WILL SUFFER FOR IT