It’s okay, we all need to emotionally dump sometimes.
For me, I went into a really dark place but was able to get out of it recently (as of I kinda got out of it this Tuesday). I totally get not liking your dad, my dad has unrealistic expectations of me and I obviously never reach them. I often feel like a failure but I am trying to view it in a different light, ya know? Think that it’s not my fault that he expects too much of me.
“Nothing lasts forever, including this pain.” I like to take solace in this quote.
I totally understand mentally and physically beating yourself up (I used to do it but now I’m trying to stop), you should really make sure to take care of yourself. I don’t know what you did but it probably wasn’t that bad, and almost everyone deserves forgiveness.
You will get friends again, it may take a bit but you will have them again. I’ll put 3021$ on it.
Sometimes you aren’t truly you when you are struggling so don’t beat yourself over it too much even if you are being rude.
I completely understand wanting to escape reality, I do that all the time. The real world hurts too much to live in it all the time, for me at least.
Family does matter, but for me I’m not really related to my real family. They are my friends not the people I’m related to. If your family is being toxic then it’s okay to not like them and have your real family be another place (when you find people to call your family).
I can be your friend if you want.
(I’m sorry this isn’t in any order, I’m horrible at organizing stuff like this)
(And I’m sorry if this post is unwelcome, I understand if this isn’t what you wanted)
