THIS IS WHY I HATE MYSELF. ALMOST NONE OF THE INSULTS I MAKE ARE ACTUALLY DIRECTED AT ANYONE ELSE, I LET OFF STEAM BY CALLING PEOPLE WHAT I FEEL I AM. I'M IN LOVE WITH 3 PEOPLE AT ONCE, I FEEL LIKE A CHARACTER FROM BOYFRIENDS, I HATE THAT I'M POLY. I'M ATTRACTED TO FICTIONAL CHARACTERS MORE THAN I AM TO REAL PEOPLE (THERE ARE EXCEPTIONS) BUT STILL. EVERYONE THINKS I'M ANNOYING WHEN I TALK, AND ALSO WHEN I DON'T TALK, AND I THINK I'M ANNOYING TOO. I CAN'T MAKE ANY NEW FRIENDS, AND I CAN'T HAVE A NORMAL CONVERSATION WITH ANYONE ELSE. I HAVE NO MOTIVATION TO DO ANY SCHOOL WORK, AND I GET GROUNDED FOR IT. I'VE NEVER HAD THE CONFIDENCE TO DATE IRL, JUST ONLINE. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT OR WHO I AM, I DON'T KNOW MY OWN PERSONALITY, SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE I'M A FUNNY GUY, BUT OTHER TIMES I FEEL LIKE A QUIET KID WHO CAN ACTUALLY DO WORK. I'M SCARED OF THE MOST STUPID SHIT, LIKE THE DARK, POP ROCKS, HEIGHTS, RATS, SPIDERS, AND SNAKES. I FEEL LIKE EVERYONE ELSE IS AGAINST ME, CONSTANTLY TRYING TO HURT ME. I'M SUPER JUMPY AND GET SCARED SO EASILY, I WAS BORN A MALE. AND NOT EVEN I CAN TAKE MYSELF SERIOUSLY