I’m venting in the comments, whenever I need to because I don’t want to make a bunch of posts

And we got kicked out of the program that was supposed to “help us”!!! The only help we got was shelter
It wasn’t even good tho
We had to move every week
Each place was just a church where we had a room with shitty air mattress and had to be out by 5 am and in by 5pm
The food was shit most of the time
The people were different every night
No one at the center that was supposed to help my mom actually helped
They kicked us out before we had our stuff and it’s at the center so we have to get it in the f**king morning and sleep in the car during f**king winter
I cant talk to my school about it or my counselor so I’m stuck telling a f**king phone and my friend over text about it.
Every f**king time something good happens it just gets worse
I just wanna f**king die

When your mom leaves you in the car along with her phone while she goes into her boyfriends van and makes out with him for an hour

She really said to me “well now you know how I feel when I wait on you to be done hanging out with your friends!” WELL DOES SHE HAVE TO BE ABLE TO F**KING SEE HER BOYFRIEND AND HER KISSING IN HIS VAN??? NO. STFU MOM

I’m sick and tired of the car
I’m sick and tired of shitty mattresses on the floor
I’m sick and tired of not showering for sometimes weeks
I’m sick and tired of living
I don’t want to hurt anyone anymore
I just want to die
To leave
To fix everything and die so that everyone is finally happy
I am just so sick of living and being a burden

You should find a free online therapist, I think tic talk to is free, idk though.

Yeah-

I feel so stupid I can’t go frickin 10 seconds without my friends talking to me or I’ll think they hate me… example: online friends
It’s not their faults. They have lives and other people to talk to.
But like today I was playing roblox with a friend and they were afk so they didn’t say congrats or cheer me on or anything during a game and my stupid ass brain said “Oop they hate u now! You made them hate you! Good job [deadname] you little shit no one likes you not even your own family”

I’m tired
So f**king tired
I just want a bed
I just want stability
I just want my brother back :(

I NEVER HATED ANYONE I ALWAYS MADE HANDMADE AND PERSONAL GIFTS AND CARDS FOR EVERY CLASS AND EVERY HOLIDAY PARTY I GAVE ACTIVITY CRAFTS TO FRIENDS MAKING THEM PERSONALLY FOR THEM I TREATED EVERYONE THE BEST THAT WAS HUMANLY F**KING POSSIBLE!!!
WHEN SOMEONE WAS CRYING I COMFORTED THEM WHEN SOMEONE WAS HURT I OFFERED TO WALK THEM TO THE NURSE OR RUN HALF WAY ACROSS A NEIBORHOOD TO MY HOUSE TO GET NEASPORIN AND A BANDAID FOR THEM I HELPED KIDS WITH WORK AND EVEN TOOK UP MY RECESS AND MY LUNCH TO HELP MY OLD 4TH GRADE TEACHER!
I GOT EVERYONE TO SOGN MY YEARBOOKS AND WROTE PERSONAL NOTES IN THEIR YEARBOOKS THAT WERE GENUINE AND SPECIFIC TO THAT PERSON I CARED I THOUGHT OF EVERYONE AS MY FRIEND WHY AM I WRONG WHY AM I WEIRD WHY AM I INCORRECT WMY AM I A MISTAKE WHY DOSE EVERYONE HATE ME WHY I DID NOTHING F**KING WRONG TO THEM

WHY THE F**K CANT I JUST BE NORMAL I WANT TO KILL MYSELF I HATE IT HERE I F**KING HATE IT IM DONE “being positive” AND “taking deep breaths”!!!!! IM F**KING SUCK AND TIRED OF IT!!!

My mom said “oh Bob got a hotel room and we can stay there!”
So obviously you would think I could now sleep in a bed for the first time in weeks right??
Nope!
I have to sleep either on the FLOOR or a CHAIR!
Because there is one big bed that my mom and her bf are using even tho I could literally sleep in it too and just not be by her bf-
So my mom is going to sleep great and I’ll not be able to sleep like always! :D

Go***amnit I’m sick a horrible f**king friend

Ah yes, arguing right next to me a great idea :)

I’m so scared I’m so scared of everything I can’t talk I can’t cry I just have to sit here and act fine I’m scared why is my mom so scared wtf is going on I want to see mrs. Anderberg I want to hug her and talk about my ocs for hours to her I want to go back to 6th grade help I want to burn my body so badly I hate Bob so f**king much

My mom’s “boyfriend” did something and asked for $100???? And she now is trying to give him the money and now saying he dosnt want it so she’s crying and panicking wtf did he do-

I’m so scared of my mom but not in a way that I want to be away from her but I’m a way I want to be with her and to fix and help and love her and her love me and not just hate me…

I’m sick of my mom putting him on speaker like I don’t want to hear him I alredy have enough trauma from that bitch

Thought she was apologizing to me so I said “I forgive and love you too!” but it was her apologizing to her shitty boyfriend that she should just dump

Her f**king horrible boyfriend knows I’m awake like stop giving me trauma flashbacks you bitch ass motherf**ker

It’s happening again I can hear everything stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop

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It’s a new f**king year and I sprang it hearing my mom get f**ked by her bf 😐 I hate f**king everything rn

*spent

Why tf my mom and her bf gotta fck when we are lierally in the same hotel room like stop I’m trying to fcking exsist