i'm here because every house is the same. i always look the same. i am the same. i will never change. i'm an ignorant little brat who always cries and runs away right when things get better. my girlfriend, MOXIEDRUMER, i'm sorry. i broke up with you on halloween because I was scared of what they might say about me. i was scared you'd leave as soon as i started getting attached. i was scared, i was so, so scared. i'm scared that you'll be like her, using me, taking advantage of me, even though we were 1,328 miles away. i miss her though. i miss her virtual touch, even if it hurt. i miss being wanted. i miss being vulnerable. it's like i put this shield up. i reflect the taking advantage-ness away. that's why i've never had a real kiss, i'm too scared that i'll become vulnerable and end up making a huge mistake. i always act like im so confident and tough, but EVERY. TIME. that someone says something horrid about me, i crumble, i break, i'm so fragile.
i'm so
so
so
fragile.
please don't break me.