believe me, i'm crying on the inside after reading this
i could spam a big, fat F. but i love all my comrades equally so i must choose to have actual feelings. very sorry to hear abt that bro. like this is worse than having to haul my irl truck all the way to Dallas (3 hrs from my house but Dallas traffic makes it 4 hrs and usually it feels like forever bc there's only like 2 places you can stop at on the way)