Okay? what does it matter. You might be a bitch ass n**ga who haven’t done anything, but you can change that if you get good grades, try to stay happy and do things that make you happy, don’t let dumbass assholes like me on the internet try to get you down, just go make friends, and holding hands with a girl is a really good start, talk to her and bond with her and maybe you could get a girlfriend. and make friends at school at stuff yk?. you might not be the best person in your family but i’m damn sure that you are trying and that’s all you need to do, if you keep trying your absolute best you can do f**king anything, and you could even be better than your family, so do what’s best for you and what makes you happy.