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I REALLY JUST WANNA DYE AND STRAIGHTEN MY HAIR, BUT MY MOM ACTS LIKE MY HAIR BELONGS TO HER, AND EVEN PUTTING THE SLIGHTEST ANYTHING ON IT WILL AUTOMATICALLY DESTROY IT FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. SHE WONT CUT IT THE WAY I WANT IT CUT, SHE CHANGES MY HAIR STYLE WITHOUT EVEN ASKING ME FIRST, AND THE ONLY "PRODUCT" IM ALLOWED TO USE IN IT IS CONDITIONER. AND SHE IGNORES THE FACT SHE STRAIGHTENED MY HAIR WHEN I WAS 5-6 AND IT DIDNT HURT MY HAIR OR ANYTHING- AND MY HAIR IS A REALLY BIG PART OF HOW I PRESENT, AT FIRST I FELT LIKE IT WAS ONE OF THE ONLY THINGS I CAN USE TO HELP PROJECT HOW I FEEL ON THE INSIDE TO THE OUTSIDE, IF THAT MAKES ANY SENSE, AND I WAS SO HAPPY WHEN MY MOM LET ME CUT IT SHORT. BUT NOW I THINK MY MOM BLAMES ME BEING NONBINARY FOR ALL THIS I WANT TO CHANGE MY HAIR STUFF, BECAUSE I'VE NEVER REALLY ASKED TO CHANGE IT LIKE THIS BEFORE. BUT EVEN THOUGH MY MOM SUPPORTS LGBTQ+, I THINK IN THE BACK OF HER MIND SHE WANTS THIS ALL TO BE ONE BIG PHASE I GO THROUGH. SHE WONT GET ME A BINDER, BECAUSE SHE SAYS I JUST NEED TO GET USED TO MY BODY, AND THIS IS SOMETHING THAT HAPPENS TO EVERYONE WITH FEMALE HORMONES. LATELY MY HAIR HAS ACTUALLY BEEN GIVING ME MORE DYSPHORIA, AND IM REALLY UPSET THAT MY MOM CANT SEEM TO UNDERSTAND THAT. THANKS FOR LISTENING IF YOU READ ALL THIS-; A RANT I SUBMITTED IN THE LGBTQ STREAM BUT MIGHT AS WELL PUT IT HERE TOO (ITS ABOUT MY HAIR, IF YOU DONT WANT TO DONT READ IT) (ALSO READ DESCRIPTION CAUSE THE TEXT IS S M O L )