oh, well people say things that they might not mean, if you meant that it was out of sure aggression and anger, when you get over it you slowly start to realize that if you made the same mistake you would feel pretty bad too yk? so you just have to calm down- you don't have to be full on aggressive with everything-
it's fine, I've been told to kill myself so many times and i haven't, its only what people say and what ever they say doesn't matter only as long as you care about yourself, he probably knows that and i'm sure you do too