All these anti-weebs are getting through to my head. Have any of you all noticed that I was one of the only owners of this stream that's against Lewis? Have any of you all noticed that every time I make a new temp, I make another one without an anime background? Have any of you all noticed I stopped making anime related memes? Have any of you all noticed that whenever Firestar says something bad to me, I either just don't reply and even thank him for insulting me? That's how bad it's been. I can't stand up for myself, can't say what I want to say, I'm silent.
I've been talking to Elyse for a while and looking at Fak_u_lol's memes, not to make you guilty Elyse, you're awesome for talking to me despite me being an MHA fan and you being an MHA hater, and it just makes me feel so bad for being a weeb. I mean, I was broken even before watching MHA. But maybe I'm just an idiot girl who wastes her time watching MHA to fix herself but ends up getting more broken. Maybe I'm just a loser who'll never be able to do anything useful in life. I mean, why do I even think that just because Deku was able to make it means that I'll be able to reach my dreams too? It's just fiction, it isn't real.
There's nothing special about us weebs. What we watch doesn't make us special. Just because you listen to Kpop doesn't mean you have a superior taste of music. Just because we watch anime doesn't mean we're better than everyone else. We're just weirdos who watch some Japanese cartoons that we can't understand without subtitles or dub and cosplay as them to feel awesome and... like them. But maybe that's what makes us different, and things I've learned in and outside of anime and fiction tells me that there's nothing wrong with being different and that we should be proud of these differences.
Maybe I'll be more confident, maybe even stand up for myself when Firestar insults me again (or not, no hate against you, Firestar). Idk. I'll just keep rolling through life again.