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me: oof :(
also me: you are livin da dream but still you dont like it so I feel bad :(

How?

bc im closeted trans MTF

you and I are polar opposites

Oh

but we can still be frendz?

Sure

noice

Dang

Which part of it is bothering you? is it that it's awkward? or what

That, but mostly the fact that my bust makes me extremely dysphoric as its already larger than most AFAB.

well I assume she's measuring it for bra sizes? as somebody who is also born female, and also feels mildly uncomfortable abt having a larger chest, I can confidently say it's prolly for the best. If you forget that you're even wearing a bra, then it makes your chest looks smaller. So this might help you.

And don't worry, the measurements will be done soon. It takes like 2 seconds. Try to breath and stuff, and if you have your own money, perhaps go out by yourself and buy some more masculine clothing? that helped me

I dont know how to explain it to you, but its not that easy for me. Everytime I see my chest, I break down. Those are on my easy days. My more dysphoric days include self harm.

I can't do that. I am not allowed to buy or do anything masculine. The haircut was required by my counselor, but then my parents cut him off because they didn't like the fact he was semisupporting. Etc.

Reading this and knowing people can be in this situation makes me wanna commit arson.

This is probably a bad idea, a horrible idea, and idea that my stupid brain came up with and thus means it's stupid. But, maybe (and this is the only time i'd ever consider self harm is okay for anybody) make a VERY SMALL cut on your chest so you have an excuse to wrap them in bandages, and then maybe you wont really need to look at them? maybe? idk.

Or maybe you can try to cover your eyes while she makes the measurements. I'm not really sure if I can come up with anything useful, because that by no means is something I'm good at.

If you're under 18 perhaps you can call child protective services.

I dont know either.

I have an older half sister (20 years old) and half brother (26).

My half-brother was disowned for being gay by our mother and his step-dad/my dad.

My sister was soon disowned after by supporting my brother and reporting sexual assault.

I dont want to talk about my own experiences because 1. I dont remember some of them thanks to a Trauma holder in our system. And 2. I dont want to relive things or make it seem like I'm making this up for attention.

At the beginning of July, my older sister contacted me and we've been chatting in secret since.

She tells me I will move out soon enough and that I can live with her. She tells me to contact someone to get me out of here, but she knows I feel guilty. They are my parents after all. People will tell me "Despite what he did, he's still your father". And I give into that most of the time. Because i know I'm blessed to even have parents.

We talk about my future transition and stuff. I feel so lucky to have her again. I also feel pain when I think about how I could have worn shoes with laces sooner if I had I had her (i never learned how to tie shoes until I was in 6th grade). I used to bawl whenever someone mentioned their older siblings. I feel like a lot of people take them for granted.

a lot of that is unrelated information im sorry. I just kind of spiraled into a rant and forgot my point.

Don't give into that s**t. Your parents are people and if they wont treat you right then they can go straight to hell. Especially because they're your parents. If they wont treat their own family like people, they don't deserve a family.

You need to remember that just like them you're a human and deserve the same respect. If they're willing to disown their own child for something silly and miniscule as just like wanting to be gay or something, perhaps they aren't even people, and don't deserve your respect.

You shouldn't feel guilty for living in a complicated situation. My parents have been divorced since I was three, and the one person my mother dated who I thought I could trust got shot by the guy who used to live upstairs to us, who harassed us for years. I felt sucky and horrible for all my life and I never wanted to express how I felt about all of it because I didn't want to annoy other people with me talking about my bad situation. And all it lead to was untreated depression and other mental issues I don't feel like talking about.

NEVER feel greedy for wanting to help yourself out, feel greedy for taking from others, I can confidently say there's a HUGE difference. If your sister wants to help you, let her.

Thank you...

No problem, I hope this all turns out alright. Things will get better, you just gotta wait for it.

You said something i would have said, only way better

I am not allowed to talk to them. So I am being disobedient. Yes.

I live in the middle of nowhere. The closest city is 45 minutes away. The closest BIG city is 2 1/2 hours away.

Damn. If you're in the UK, I recomend calling childline. The number doesn't show up on the phone bill. If you're in the US, then I have no idea. I am truly sorry.
Times will get better. I know they will.

My school. The breeding ground for sexual assault..

I've already spoken to one of the school counselors and she pretty much told me I mean nothing if I'm trans.

Not that I'm aware of in honesty
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i hear u on that bro
since im an open demigirl, people will NOT leave me alone (i have been harassed multiple times just because im also a little bigger so) the main cause of me wanting to be a demigirl so there ya go.
hang in there! :)

im glad the Abrosexuals are getting a little more attention now :D