tbh u rly shouldn't commit. I may look bleak rn but that changes. there's help out there u can get it. know that there's lots of ppl, even if its online that will be devastated if u go like this. And you know that lots of ppl on this stream will hurt themselves bc of this. Ur young, u hv a chance in life even if u think otherwise. Also know that this isn't what u want, its an mental illness that wants u 2 do it and it seems like its what u want, that its the only way out but its rly not. As soon as u kill yourself u will start to regret it and wish u can undo it but by then its 2 late.
Even if whatever shite ur in rn seems like it has been a problem forever, know that its just temporary and u just hv 2 keep on going cause in the end it does get better.
In the end the decision is urs and its rly not a sensible or good one but like yeah.