but when it dos change,

If jt does change then i might as well be dead. The person i specifically wrote this for saved me from suicide and was there by my side when no one wasn't. He may have been in a different state than me but he damn sure impacted my life more than anyone has in the last 13 years. Now that he's gone it feels like there's a whole in my heart that no one can fix.

The worst thing is that I can relate to this so much.

It's upsetting that anyone can relate. Us as humans shouldn't feel this way about ourselves.

ikr

It's sad how close that is to how I feel about life

Life should be full of happiness and joy not hatred and turmoil. I wish that I could solve everyone's problems even if it ment that mine were never solved.

From my sight I dont think you always screw things up. I have seen many good reactions to you from different people. You dont mess up their lives, you mix it into something better for them.

Thank you. Sorry I haven't responded I've been going through a lot lately. You're a very kind person.

I try to make people happy cause I also go through things and dont want them to experience what I feel.

I am the same way. I put everyone's happiness before mine because I don't want them knowing the feeling of sadness or depression or like you said anything I go through.

yeah bro why do we have to be idiots?

Thats a good question I wish I new the answer to

I wish I knew the answer to all life's problems. I wish I had answers for a lot of things but I don't.

:)(

it'll be okay

Thank you for the encouragement