MEEEEEEEE I CARE!!! (I know I'm a random stranger on the internet but STILLL) Seriously, though, you do matter. People around you do care, and will miss you, even if you wouldn't know they would. There are people you've smiled at, or you laughed at their joke and made their day, or they thought you had a really cool shirt, and if you disappeared it would make them sad... *especially* if they found out you did commit suicide they would be *super* sad. So... yeah just remember that there are always people who care, who you matter to. And I'm so so sorry you're going through this... I've been there and it SUCKS... But I know it will get better someday, and I hope it does sooner than later! ❤